My Unplanned Blessing

As many of you may know I had my unplanned blessing 14 years tomorrow. Some of you may remember my story, and if you don’t, that’s okay. I can fill you in. My story is a lot like many other women that have been holding on to their story. I have been blogging for over five years, and each time I reveal a little more to my story. I wasn’t fully ready to disclose my past and to deal with the reality of it all.

The Unplanned Movie

To jump ahead, my husband, son, and I went to go see the movie Unplanned. If you haven’t seen it, please see it. It doesn’t matter if you are pro-abortion or pro-life because this movie is about a woman’s story. It’s her life story. She too is a woman advocate and wanted to help women in crises. This movie shows both sides, and if anything this movie can help us come together.

If you are pro-abortion, you don’t know how you feel, or if you are pro-life I challenge you to watch this movie. All I ask is for you to have an open mind and watch the movie. What can it hurt? If you still walk out of the movie, and you still feel the same way that’s fine. No judgment. The true Christians will love you no matter what, but it doesn’t mean we will stop praying for you.

After our family watched the movie my son asked me the question that I’ve been daunting his whole life. He asked me if I wanted to abort him. I paused and then I gave him the truth, but first my story.

I was a normal teenager from a middle-class family. Our family is Christian Roman Catholic. I got the sex talk that didn’t include any informative information. The only words that stick out are don’t have sex before marriage. That’s it. I was fourteen, and I’ve never kissed a boy or anything. I knew nothing about sex. So, how could I be prepared for what was to come in my life?

I was fifteen, and an older boy from church kissed me and groped me. I didn’t even know how to kiss, and it happened so fast. I didn’t want any of that. I was screaming inside, but I couldn’t get a word out.

The next time something happened like that I was sixteen. A boy from school took me for a car ride. He stopped the car in an alley. I asked what he was doing. Next thing I know he locks the door as I was trying to get out of the car. He grabs me by my hair and forces me to give oral sex. I’ve never seen a penis before, and I had no idea what was happening. I was crying while it was happening. When it was over, and I got to a bathroom at my school I cried and cried. I could barely catch my breath.

I didn’t know why these things were happening to me. Fast-forward to the age of nineteen. I was in college, and I was dating a guy. I liked him but he was in the military, and he was going to be leaving. I have no idea why I thought it would be the way to lose my virginity. Afterwards, I knew it was a mistake and I wanted to wait till marriage.

The next guy was just a friend who I started dating. After several dates we had sex. I had no idea why the word no couldn’t come out of my mouth. I didn’t want to. The next time I said no several times, and that’s when it happened. Yes, I was raped. It has taken me years even to admit it. I still question myself because the unbelievable part is that I went back to him.

Not much longer after that I find out I’m pregnant, which leads back to the question that my son asked me a couple of days ago. I told him this.

The truth is that the thought passed through my mind and then I felt sick to my stomach. I felt guilty that I even considered aborting him. I told him that I loved being pregnant with him. Once he was born, I instantly loved him unconditionally. I can’t even explain in words how much I love him. He was truly my unplanned blessing.

For anyone who has thought about abortion or who have had an abortion, I understand where you are coming from. There is no judgment, but I hope eventually you will find healing and to know that God loves you anyway. He just wants you to repent.

My Unplanned Blessing

I hope that all people will come to know the truth. I wish every person will find healing and that there will be peace in a world that is broken.

To read more posts like this go to: What I Wish I knew As A Teen

Capturing Those Special Moments

This post was sponsored by the makers of ibi as part of an Influencer Activation for Influence Central. The makers of ibi sent me this for free. All opinions expressed in my post are my own

There are those special moments, like when my son was about to run his very first track meet. I was able to record the whole race, except I was moving the camera so much because I was yelling, go Noah! Luckily, my husband took a better video. I was trying to send the video on a group text to my family, and it wouldn’t go through. It can be frustrating when you want your family to be a part of your life and technology fails.

We have years of pictures and videos that are priceless. My husband is the one who takes care of our photos and stores them on a hard drive. Well, one day he accidentally pressed the wrong button, and in a blink of an eye, 2 years of our pictures were gone.

We never want to make that mistake again. We continue to take many pictures and videos, the problem is finding the space for them without spending a fortune on expensive cloud storage options. I was given the opportunity to try out a new product called ibi.

This is a brand new product that is a smart photo manager. It’s a beautiful white device that goes well in my office. There is an app that you download, and then you start to load your pictures. It’s simple and easy.

Here Is Why I Love ibi

It’s a one-time purchase of the device. There are no monthly fees to store all of your photos and videos. (although I did get mine for free for sharing my honest thoughts)

It will store up to 2 TB, which is enough to store 2 million average size photos.

You don’t need to buy the device or have the app to receive photos. If I send some pictures to my aunt, she can see the images. She can also add pictures to that photo album.

The app is easy to use. It allows you to categorize your pictures and videos and to share with who you want.

I love how easy it is to send pictures and videos to my inner circle.

The device ibi is very cute and it goes well with my home décor.

Life is so much better when you can share those special moments with the people that you love. To see a short video on ibi click here. To learn more about ibi go here.

To All Women

As a little girl, I was shy and quiet. I only spoke when people spoke to me. I spent a lot of my time watching others talk and how they reacted in situations. I believe I was extremely observant because of my shyness and because I preferred to listen than to talk. I remember watching others, especially women.

I couldn’t wait to grow up and be a woman. There was just something about women that was fascinating to me. Still, till this day I have that same admiration for women.

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DIY Spring Prayer Mailbox

Four years ago we made a DIY prayer drop box to put out in front of our house. I didn’t know how my neighbors would react. Luckily we got some positive feedback, and we even had some neighbors put in some prayer requests. It lasted for a while until a big storm came through.

Putting some serious thought on improvements, we have redesigned the project to be more weather resistant. It should hold up through any storm. We are now in our new home, and we need another prayer box for our new community.

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What I Wish I Knew As A Teen

When I was a teen I wish I knew so many things that I know now. I bet you can say the very same thing about yourself. We experience life, we make mistakes and learn from them, and we grow up.

There are a multitude of things that I wish I would have known as a teen, but the most important thing is knowing your worth. I didn’t know, and many teens and even adults still do not know their value.

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Lessons Learned Through Past Experiences

We get to choose where we live, where we work, how we react to situations, etc. We don’t get to choose our obstacles, and we don’t get to pick what past experiences we can get rid of. Some things are out of our control. We can use our past experiences to learn from and to help others. I am blessed to have a platform like my blog to share my lessons learned so it may help others.

What I Have Learned

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Red Velvet Chocolate Mousse Cupcakes

I recently made chocolate mousse for my family and it was so amazing that I felt like it melted in my mouth. It tasted so smooth and rich, but not too sweet either. It was the perfect combination! My family loved it so much that I decided to try it as a substitution for frosting.

I love red velvet so I decided to make cupcakes and use the chocolate mousse instead of frosting. I wasn’t sure how it was going to turn out. I’m so happy I tried this because now I prefer chocolate mousse over frosting.

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